Whole

by Katrina Wendt

Stop showing
You love me
A little at a time.

Stop saying
You care
Bit by bit.

Stop keeping
Me here
For tiny pieces of time.

Because I need
All of you
Not piece by piece.

I love
All of you
Not just some parts of you.

So love all of me
All the way
All the time.

Or let all of me go
All at once
For good.

Y U NO LET NO ONE LOVE U

“The important thing is this: To be able at any moment to sacrifice that which we are for what we could become.”

—	Charles DuBois

Fact :

I (willingly) completed my statistics homework, two days before it is due.

BOOM.

Bewitched, bothered, and bewildered :

No more.

I enjoy this :

"And jazz, it's so cute that you listen to jazz!"

- Arotin Hartounian

Do yourself a favor and check out his work: http://arotinhartounian.blogspot.com/

One day, I will be so beautiful to someone. One day, I will be so beautiful to me.

25 Things To Do Before You Turn 25

JUN. 25, 2012 

By JANUARY NELSON

1. Make peace with your parents. Whether you finally recognize that they actually have your best interests in mind or you forgive them for being flawed human beings, you can’t happily enter adulthood with that familial brand of resentment.

2. Kiss someone you think is out of your league; kiss models and med students and entrepreneurs with part-time lives in Dubai and don’t worry about if they’re going to call you afterward.

3. Minimize your passivity.

4. Work a service job to gain some understanding of how tipping works, how to keep your cool around assholes, how a few kind words can change someone’s day.

5. Recognize freedom as a 5:30 a.m. trip to the diner with a bunch of strangers you’ve just met.

6. Try not to beat yourself up over having obtained a ‘useless’ Bachelor’s Degree. Debt is hell, and things didn’t pan out quite like you expected, but you did get to go to college, and having a degree isn’t the worst thing in the world to have. We will figure this mess out, I think, probably; the point is you’re not worth less just because there hasn’t been an immediate pay off for going to school. Be patient, work with what you have, and remember that a lot of us are in this together.

7. If you’re employed in any capacity, open a savings account. You never know when you might be unemployed or in desperate need of getting away for a few days. Even $10 a week is $520 more a year than you would’ve had otherwise.

8. Make a habit of going outside, enjoying the light, relearning your friends, forgetting the internet.

9. Go on a 4-day, brunch-fueled bender.

10. Start a relationship with your crush by telling them that you want them. Directly. Like, look them in the face and say it to them. Say, I want you. I want to be with you.

11. Learn to say ‘no’ — to yourself. Don’t keep wearing high heels if you hate them; don’t keep smoking if you’re disgusted by the way you smell the morning after; stop wasting entire days on your couch if you’re going to complain about missing the sun.

12. Take time to revisit the places that made you who you are: the apartment you grew up in, your middle school, your hometown. These places may or may not be here forever; you definitely won’t be.

13. Find a hobby that makes being alone feel lovely and empowering and like something to look forward to.

14. Think you know yourself until you meet someone better than you.

15. Forget who you are, what your priorities are, and how a person should be.

16. Identify your fears and instead of letting them dictate your every move, find and talk to people who have overcome them. Don’t settle for experiencing .000002% of what the world has to offer because you’re afraid of getting on a plane.

17. Make a habit of cleaning up and letting go. Just because it fit at one point doesn’t mean you need to keep it forever — whether ‘it’ is your favorite pair of pants or your ex.

18. Stop hating yourself.

19. Go out and watch that movie, read that book, listen to that band you already lied about watching, reading, listening to.

20. Take advantage of health insurance while you have it.

21. Make a habit of telling people how you feel, whether it means writing a gushing fan-girl email to someone whose work you love or telling your boss why you deserve a raise.

22. Date someone who says, “I love you” first.

23. Leave the country under the premise of “finding yourself.” This will be unsuccessful. Places do not change people. Instead, do a lot of solo drinking, read a lot of books, have sex in dirty hostels, and come home when you start to miss it.

24. Suck it up and buy a Macbook Pro.

25. Quit that job that’s making you miserable, end the relationship that makes you act like a lunatic, lose the friend whose sole purpose in life is making you feel like you’re perpetually on the verge of vomiting. You’re young, you’re resilient, there are other jobs and relationships and friends if you’re patient and open.

I is kind.

I is smart.

I is important.


I is kind.

I is smart.

I is important.


I is kind.

I is smart.

I is important.


I is kind.

I is smart.

I is important.

Time it was, and what a time it was, it was 
A time of innocence, a time of confidences 
Long ago, it must be, I have a photograph 
Preserve your memories, they're all that's left you

God, you have quite a way of snagging my attention and making Yourself loud and clear.

The more I think about it, the more excited I'm getting about majoring in English and quite possibly double-majoring in Feminist/Gender Studies. I'm really, really excited, actually.

Notes On Majoring In Humanities

JUN. 21, 2012 

By MILA JARONIEC

Congratulations, you’ve chosen a humanities major! You are either really brave or hopelessly idealistic and clueless. Probably a healthy mix of all three. Below, a list of simple yet useful points I gathered along the way to completing my useless humanities degrees.

Follow your <3.

To everyone who has chosen a “useless” major or is thinking about choosing a useless major: shine on, crazy diamond. Seriously. It takes balls to stick to your guns and do what you love when everyone else is smirking at you going “So what are you gonna do with that?” (By the way, people will do this for the rest of your life — even after you graduate.) At this point you’ve probably already had your ears talked off top to bottom about the economy, the job market, “doing something practical,” whatever, and you’re all like…but I just want to study medieval German architecture, what the hell is the problem? NOTHING. There is no problem. You are perfect the way you are and the world would come to a boring standstill if not for amazingly impractical passionate weirdoes like yourself.

Know thyself.

Don’t major in something because your mom thinks it’s a good idea. Don’t major in something because your best friend’s mom thinks it’s a good idea. Don’t major in something because Newsweek’s Top 10 List Of Whatever thinks it’s a good idea. You know yourself best, so don’t let someone talk you into majoring in accounting when you can’t even add. Yes, it’s good to major in something that makes you happy, but it’s also good to major in something you don’t inherently suck at. I started my freshman year as a neuroscience major (…?) because a) I had this idea that it would benefit humanity somehow, and b) I must have the science gene because my parents are scientists, so I just need to try a little harder, right? Wrong, and it took me several C’s and a nervous breakdown in the neuro lab to figure that out. Don’t do that to yourself. Trust your own judgment.

Actually do things.

Just going to class (or not) and getting A’s in stuff will not do anything for you, I promise. You’re paying out the ass for this education, and if you really do want to be there, why not make it worth the time and money? Just do stuff. Seriously. Don’t worry about fulfilling a list of “requirements” and just goddamn learn. Work on a research project, do independent study, do a senior project on a topic you’re excited about, whatever. If your school doesn’t offer the major you want, make it yourself. Stop worrying so much about your resume and the details you can stuff it with and start making moves in the field you’re truly interested in. Make advances. If you kick ass at something, the right people will notice. And yeah, if you can get a 3.8 while being a drunken mess, cool for you. But if you can get a 3.8 and complete a senior honors thesis on Beat literature through a feminist lens while being a drunken mess, you’re a god.

Go to office hours.

No one ever does until they find themselves failing a class or needing a letter of recommendation, but you should do it. You don’t have to pitch a tent outside your favorite professor’s office every week to build a good relationship with them, but if you’re taking a class with someone you admire who you can learn more from and could possibly work with later, it would make sense to get to know them. Plus, if you know you’re going to be asking for a letter of recommendation eventually, you should probably make sure they know your face as something other than drooling blankly on a textbook in the far back during lecture.

6 Things 20-Somethings Want

JUN. 12, 2012 

By SAMANTHA WILLNER

1. To own books. To have an apartment that houses an overstuffed bookcase overflowing with fiction, non-fiction, autobiographies, cookbooks, self-help, and cheesy romance novels. Underneath the windowsill overlooking the city, there will sit a leather lounge chair that you picked up at an antique store or yard sale. Here, you will sit and read all your wonderful books.

2. To be loved. By friends, family, men and women. To never be alone on a Friday night. You’ll host book club meetings in your apartment and show off your overflowing bookcase. You’ll do yoga on Tuesdays. You’ll take art history classes for fun. You’ll go on dates. When your world falls apart, you’ll always have someone to call for support. A loving soul will always be there to congratulate you on your accomplishments, give you a massage after a long day, hook that difficult bracelet latch around your wrist that you can never get on your own, and of course, tell you you’re beautiful.

3. To own a unique pet, like a cockatiel or miniature pig. To have a doorman who knows your name. On rainy days, you’ll attempt to watch all the classic movies you never watched when you were younger. You’ll call your mom every Sunday. You’ll write poetry for fun. You’ll read the New York Times at your local coffee joint and attempt to do the Sunday crossword puzzles. The barista will know your order without having to ask. One day, you’ll give up coffee for green tea, but what’s the rush?

4. To be successful. To receive invitations to fashion shows and art gallery openings, but only attend them selectively. To write beautiful things to fall upon the eyes of beautiful people. Your feet will be your main form of transportation. You’ll be the most fashionable person at the office. During lunch breaks, you’ll get lost in Barnes & Noble. You’ll call your boss by his or her first name and sometimes, when a deadline is approaching, you’ll shoot each other a text. You’ll have health insurance and a retirement plan.

5. To do something crazy — like move to China — and then blame it on a fleeting youth. To eat pizza in Rome. To accumulate frequent flyer miles. To, every once in awhile, fly first class.

6. To, one day, reread these hopes and desires, smiling at the things that came to fruition, and wondering what happened to those that didn’t.

"Honeymoon stages can make you feel like you’re living in the 1800s. Modern conveniences start to not matter at all. The only thing you need to get through the day is this person’s love and affection. Twitter? What’s that? I’M IN LOVE, BITCH!"

Warning sign :

6. They make you work for it.

We’ve all had those relationships and friendships where you feel like you’re perpetually on a job interview. You’re constantly vying for their affection and approval, trying to be the person you think they want, because they’re important to you and you want to be around them. An unfortunate reality of life is that there will always be these lame, lame people who get their rocks off — and make no mistake, people do this intentionally — leaving other people hanging. It gives a sense of superiority, of control, of having the upper hand in things. And sometimes, these people can be the most alluring and interesting, and the masochistic part of us will want to win them over somehow, even though we know we should be forgetting about them completely. And whether it’s the ethereal party girl friend who knows everyone or the gorgeous guy with the chest tattoo who won’t meet our parents, we have to understand that we’re better than that — that we deserve someone who reciprocates the effort we put in and makes us feel loved back. Above all else, if someone is making you feel badly about yourself just for existing, you should not be giving them the gift of your company.

http://thoughtcatalog.com/2012/6-signs-you-shouldnt-be-hanging-out-with-someone/

I am not a seasonal human being.

‎"A scar is a mark left of love gained and lost. Of a love that was so total and complete, that its loss leaves behind a mark. Of a love which was surrender itself. Of a pain which has healed but will never be forgotten. The scars are something to be remembered, something to be treasured, something to be shared as we hear the words, 'Long have I loved thee.'"


- Michelle Barton; Scars, Isaiah 49:16

PASSING stranger! you do not know how longingly I look upon you,

You must be he I was seeking, or she I was seeking, (it comes to me as of a dream,)

I have somewhere surely lived a life of joy with you,

All is recall'd as we flit by each other, fluid, affectionate, chaste, matured,

You grew up with me, were a boy with me or a girl with me,

I ate with you and slept with you, your body has become not yours only nor left my body mine only,

You give me the pleasure of your eyes, face, flesh, as we pass, you take of my beard, breast, hands, in return,

I am not to speak to you, I am to think of you when I sit alone or wake at night alone,

I am to wait, I do not doubt I am to meet you again,

I am to see to it that I do not lose you.

- Walt Whitman

"If you tell the truth, you don't have to remember anything."


- Mark Twain

Camerado, I give you my hand!

I give you my love more precious than money,

I give you myself before preaching or law;

Will you give me yourself? will you come travel with me?

Shall we stick to each other as long as we live?

- Walt Whitman

Te extraño mucho.

Summer goal :

I have 1000 Spanish vocabulary flashcards, and about 63 days before fall classes start up.

If I memorize and review 16 Spanish words a day, I will be 1000 words closer to effectively speaking Spanish by the beginning of fall semester.

Second newsflash :

I may just double major in English and Women's Studies.

Newsflash :

I (am almost sure that I) am going to be a teacher.

Exercise :

let (verb: to allow or permit; to allow to pass, go, or come; to grant the occupancy or use of; to cause to) go and let God.

"If we take man as he is, we make him worse. But if we take him as he should be, then we make him capable of becoming what he can be.”


- Viktor Frankl

Raymond Roseliep

I just want to go to Disneyland :

There is a heaviness in the face of finals that I just can't shake from my shoulders.

"To get something you've never had, you have to do something you've never done."

"Any owner of cats will know of what I speak. Cats come at dawn to sit on your bed. They may not nip your nose or inhale your breath or make a sound. They simply sit there and stare at you until you open one eyelid and spy them there about to drop dead for need of feeding. So it is with ideas. They come silently in the hour of trying to wake up and remember my name. The notions and fancies sit on the edge of my wits, whisper in my ears and then, if I don't rouse, give more than cats give: a good knock in the head, which gets me out and down to my typewriter before the ideas flee or die or both. In any event, I make the ideas come to me. I do not go to them. I provoke their patience by pretending disregard. This infuriates the latent creature until it is almost raving to be born and once born, nourished."



- Ray Bradbury

“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”

― Louise Erdrich

 “Love means that you accept a person with all its failures, stupidities, ugly points… And nonetheless the other person is absolute for you, everything that makes life worth living, but… you see perfection in imperfection itself, and that’s how we should learn to love the world.”


- Slavoj Zizek